Sorry, two posts today, but only because it’s Insecure Writers Day
I’ve not had a great month to be honest. I decided to stop writing short stories so that I could concentrate on my novel. A good plan at the time, no, it’s still a good plan, I’m fed up with spreading myself so thinly lol. But, it’s not really worked out as I thought it would. The goal setting every week has been working well, to help me focus, but so far, I don’t think there’s been one week where I actually met them all. So this week, no goals…am I putting too much pressure on myself?
Perhaps I just don’t believe in my novel enough. Perhaps I don’t really believe in myself and that’s the problem?
I went to a Nano event last week, where I met Chris Baty (you can read all about that on Ayesha’s Blog ) and although I really thoroughly enjoyed the event (Chris was lovely) I kind of looked around the room and thought “Is this me? Am I really cut out for this? Am I just kidding myself?”
Last week I lost 20 pages of editing. They just didn’t save on my Netbook and I don’t know why. When I’m editing I usually hit ‘save as’ (and check the file name) every 2 or 3 pages. I did that, then the following day I did the same for the next 20 pages. So imagine my horror when I next opened the file to discover that the second lot had completely saved, but the first lot had disappeared! I just wanted to cry, and I haven’t touched it since. I’m too scared to. Or is that just an excuse?
Sooooo, there we have it, my insecurities lol. Is being a writer really me? How long do I go on doing this? Shall I just go out and get a ‘proper’ job? Lol. These are the questions going round in my head at the moment *sighs*
I hope all my fellow Insecure Writers are having a better month Will pop in and see as many of you as I can over the next 24 hours.
Edited to add: I managed to visit 95 fellow IWSG Blogs (pleased with that)
So what are you feeling insecure about this month?