Huge thanks as ever to the wonderful Alex J Cavanaugh for hosting the group I will try to get round as many of you as I can today.
Another month has absolutely flown by, but I don’t mind, I love autumn, when I can wrap up warm and drink endless amounts of hot chocolate. It also signifies the run up to Nanowrimo, and I’m excited this year because (1) I’ll be using Scrivener to write the whole thing and (2) I think I’m really going to enjoy writing this one
So what am I insecure about this month?
I guess, just my abilities lol. Ive had lots of lovely comments recently to the pieces of fiction I’ve been posting on my blog, but I still think that I’m a pretty shit writer lol. My grammar and punctuation absolutely SUCK and don’t even talk to me about Adjectives and Adverbs, I’ll have to go and look up what they are! I write as I speak (so all my characters have a “sowf eas Lunden” accent) and my vocabulary is limited to words of under 4 syllables. Add all that to the fact that I haven’t really got a clue what genre I write and I cant do endings and I’m pretty much in a mess lol
I keep telling myself….“Vik, you’ve only been writing for 3 years (this month) so stop beating yourself up, you just need to learn more.” But I’m impatient, and I don’t know how to learn. I thought the Faber class would teach me how to be a better writer, but all it did was make me feel shitter than I already did and not really tell me how to correct my mistakes
Practice, yeah, thats what I need, but I’ve been writing virtually every single day since I started. I added it up recently and in 2012 I wrote approximately 450,000 words! I should be a bloody expert by now! (Joke! Don’t I need to study for 10,000 hours to claim that?) Lol. Don’t get me wrong, my writing has improved, or I hope it has.
Perhaps its just my style…simple…basic…perhaps I’ll never be able to write the kind of prose I aspire to? Perhaps I’m only capable of supermarket fiction, the stuff that the normal woman in the street picks up when she buys her sausages (but saying that, even the women’s magazines don’t want my stuff lol).
So where does that leave me? People keep saying I should finish all the snippets that I post on here. But what you see on here is only the tip of the iceberg on what I have in my 43 notebooks. I don’t know where to start. Which ones are worth continuing with. Hell, I don’t even know how to edit! The stuff I post has had a spell check and that’s it. I’m at a loss to how I improve a piece through editing.
Ok, I’ll shut up now. This is turning into a major self pity trip, and apparently, if a perspective Agent or Publisher is reading this I’ve just blown all my chances. Fake it till you make it don’t they say? But thats not me, what you see is what you get….a bit like my writing
Any ideas on how I can improve it? Is good writing something that can be learnt?
What are you feeling insecure about today?
- Insecure Writers Support Day – September (the-view-outside.com)
- Insecure Writer’s Support Group – September 2013 (scribblinginthestorageroom.wordpress.com)