Today is IWSG Day, the last of 2013 and the only month I missed was November 😦
So what am I insecure about this month?…
I recently “won” at Nano, but I don’t really see it as achieving much. It was the same last year, the whole short story thing. That’s 2 years running now that I haven’t had a “novel” at the end of November *sighs* I know 50,000 words is 50,000 words, but it’s just not the same when you’re disappointed with what you ended up with.
So now I’m looking forward to next year, as 2013 has been a bit of a damp squid on the writing front (too much going on in my life perhaps?). Have I lost my passion? My enthusiasm? I haven’t got writers block, I could pick up a pen this minute and write 1000 words. No, I’ve lost something but I’m not too sure what it is lol.
As I type I’m sitting at my desk, with my leg up on a chair as I fell down the stairs yesterday and sprained my ankle, so I’m feeling very sorry for myself…so perhaps that’s compounding the issue? Who knows, but what I do know is that if I don’t refocus, find my enthusiasm for writing again, then I could quite easily never pick up a pen again *gulp*
Perhaps I just need a new project to be excited about?
Any advice would be gratefully received right now lol
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It is something to hit 50,000 words no matter what though. Think how many people didn’t. Think how many wanted to and didn’t even try?
Hope your ankle is better soon.
Next year will be awesome!
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It does sound as if you’ve lost your focus will write more later computer has a virus and using stupid lap top
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Well, writers block certainly isn’t your problem is it Sweetie? If you can rattle off 50,000 words you’re doing well in that direction.But if it isn’t giving you a book at the end and your editing won’t help create one then maybe his time your idea didn’t enthuse you. Why not ignore it for a week and then go back and see if the original idea can be changed slightly and edited into something you enjoy. It doesn’t sound like you’re short on ideas either if you can write 1000 words at the drop of a pen, but it does sound to me s though you’re preoccupied and it’s that causing your problems. Could it be Christmas causing this? If so you need to get the gift buying etc out of your system before you take a fresh look at everything.
I hope the ankle is soon better but you’re being pampered in the meantime.
xxx Huge Hugs xxx
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Welcome back darling. Writers block, never! Its been a busy year and moving whilst doing Nano, well just plain crazy!
Well done for winning and once xmas is over you can come back revitalised.
Xx
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I think you need a bit of fresh inspiration, I have just started to get into Experimental Travel and you explore your own city in a complete different way. Check it on Wiki. Sometimes we need a bit of change in our lives to give us a mental boost, we get very set in our ways sometimes.
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Finishing NaNo is a great achievement! Congrats!! Keep working on these NaNo stories. Edit, polish, and perfect them. Then send them out to editors/agents. These stories are worth something!
I am sorry that you sprained your ankle and I hope it gets better soon. Keep your chin up!
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I had a bad case of writer’s block this year, but then I started to write a memoir.. perfect solution!!!!! I am now three chapters into it. So maybe try writing a memoir? PS- my blog is entitled ‘Writer’s Block”.
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Maybe writing short stories is your thing? You should put them together in a collection and publish them as an eBook.
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I don’t have much of novel from my NaNo effort this year either, but I’m pretty much okay with that since I didn’t expect much this year. I’m just happy I found the focus and dedication to get those words every day. 🙂
I’m not sure how you could reignite your creative fire–but I know that mine sometimes sputters when I feel that I’m writing what someone else wants me to write, and not what comes from my heart. That’s happened enough times for me to recognize it, and then I back off and try to rediscover what drove me to write a particular story in the first place. I think you still have that fire inside, but sometimes it takes a break and maybe some time reading other stories to let it filter back to the surface.
Anyway, I hope your ankle feels better soon!
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We all have times like this, Vikki -it will get better I promise. Well done for completing Nano – an achievement in itself. Hope the ankle gets better soon… wine and chocolate helps, I’ve heard.
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Hope your ankle is ok! I know exactly where you’re coming from regarding the writing, although I have NEVER been self-disciplined enough to even attempt NaNo, so don’t underestimate how great it is to ‘win’! You know what my advice will be, I expect… take a break. I always find that a break re-invigorates me and makes the ideas flow. I know lots of people (including well-known authors) say just keep writing, but that definitely doesn’t work for me. I have to clear my mind from time to time. It’s ‘clearing’ at the moment in the run up to Christmas – too many other things to fill my head with. When we meet in Feb, perhaps we can thrash out some ideas and help each other out, although I hope we’ll both be writing away like good-uns by then! Relax, enjoy life and remember that writing isn’t actually the be-all and end-all, even if it feels as though it is so much of the time. It’s an obsession for those of us who HAVE to write, but not necessarily always a healthy one. Huge hugs to you. Hang on in there and don’t sweat about it! xx
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Hey Vikki, Sorry about your ankle and congrats on winning nano. It is a great accomplishment and I hope you celebrated it. You have written so many short stories, have you looked into turing it to an anthology. I decided that sometime early 2014 I am self publishing something. I figured the process will give me the motivation to continue. It’s been two years that I have seriously been at this writing gig and I sometimes feel like I have nothing to show for it. Well, self publishing something is a perfect way to get out of that funk. Good luck and let me know if I can help.
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