Good morning Insecure Writers :) Its that time of the month again and if you havent got a clue what I’m on about do check out the Insecure Writers web site.
This month i have been feeling very insecure about my writing. I ummed and arred about whether to take a Creative Writing course, and purchased yet more books on the subject.
But its also been a month where I’ve seen 4 of my fellow peers get publishing contracts and another self publish her novel. There is hope, and there are options…if only i could blooming finish something lol
And thats one of my many problems. Ive said before that i hate editing. I do a spell check and a reread…see exactly how much work there is to do…get demoralised and leave it there lol. I have 2 finished unedited novels and 2 not quite finished novels *sighs*
Im determined, this year, i will write a novel and stick with it. Edit it, rewrite it, really put the work in to get it the best that i can. Well, thats the plan anyway ;)
I think my problem stems from the fact that i enjoy the initial “creation” aspect of writing a novel, but when it comes to the detail, the fiddly bits, i lose interest and like a magpie spotting a shiny object I’m off onto the next thing. I’ll go back to the novel at a later date…wont i? *coughs*
So i need to get out of this spiral…i need to start a project, stick with it, see it through to the end…is it that i just don’t feel that passionate about the novel? Do i need to believe in it more, believe in myself?
Questions questions, and i have no real answer…i’ll try this coming Nano, i really will :)
What are you feeling insecure about right now?